It turns out that I won’t be finishing my EE degree in the expected
four years. To finish I’d have to stay an extra semester. When I realized this
around the middle of the semester, I was also feeling a need to get back into
the arts. After doing several hours of planning, and meeting with several
advisors, I figured out that I can pretty much add another degree in art
history and finish within 2 years, given that a) I take four summer courses the
next two summers and b) I take about 18 credits of upper level courses for the
next four semesters. It’s ambitious and probably a little crazy, but I’ve never
felt surer about my studies. It just feels SO right and it’s something that’s
gotten me REALLY excited. All the advisors think that I’m in a good position to
make it happen and that, yes, it is ambitious, but they’re willing to let my
Lately, I’ve been struggling to find the drive or motivation
to do my best work in engineering. In these few weeks of soul searching, you
know what I realized? My best semester of college was my first semester at MC.
I took 17 credits and got straight A’s. That semester was an experimental one,
in that I took, both, a few art courses and a few engineering courses. What’s a
bit funny is that I came in to college with this crazy idea of graduating as a
triple major in Anthropology, Studio Art, and Engineering. What can I say? I’m
an idealist, a visionary and naïve. So, of course, it’s in my nature to come up
with crazy things every once in a while. But HEY, that dream of being a triple
major may have been what drove me to doing the necessary work to get those straight
A’s and having the best academic semester in my entire college career.
Ever since I chose to pursue only art, or to pursue only engineering,
things never quite worked out. I never felt that determination to get the A’s,
or at least not at the level it was during that first semester. Sure, I’ve
taken into consideration the fact that classes got harder. But in my core, I believe
that if something truly inspires you, you’ll find the necessary motivation and
determination to get the job done and to get it done well.
From the moment I seriously considered doing a double degree
in art history and electrical engineering, my motivation and excitement about
my engineering courses vastly increased. I have been thinking things like: “I
have to convince people that I’m ready to take on this challenge, so that means
I have to step up my game and try to get as close to straight A’s as I can,”
and “I really NEED a thorough understanding of this engineering material so that
I can use it in my studies for art.”
Maybe this bout of inspiration is due to the fact that I’m
currently reading Steve Jobs’s biography. There are several mentions of the
benefits of being at the intersection of the humanities and the sciences (the
blog title is a slight reference to that). Or maybe I simply need to stop
doubting myself. As for now, I’m committed to this decision. What’s the real
harm in at least trying for a semester? I need to TRY, so that I can sleep
comfortably at night. I really hope it works out.
Here’s to hoping.
Have a great weekend everyone!