That’s what my life feels like right now.
Here we are, so so
close to the end, and I can’t focus on anything!
It’s that time when everything is due, and all of the tests
are around the corner, and all I can think about is my latest fanfiction
I mean seriously, last night I was finishing a paper, and I
blinked twice and realized that I had typed “Narnia” every three words for
nearly a full paragraph.
I can’t focus on anything, and I really want to start packing for my January trip to France. (Ohmygosh I’m going to FRANCE! I’ve never even left the East Coast of USA!)
To make things worse, it feels like the radio is out to get
me. I swear, I do enjoy a bit of pop,
but there is only so much of a certain
song that I can deal with before I get the urge to – to do something
insane. Like maybe write a song about
how much I hate it and post it on YouTube.
In other news, I have been informed that, apparently, that “Shades
of Grey” thing is actually a Twilight fanfiction that got published.
But back to schoolwork – so much to do, so little time! And the weather keeps jumping from Indian
Summer to just above freezing, so I can never plan to wear
Overheating makes it very difficult to concentrate on
anything, especially schoolwork that I am already struggling with.
Hn… the downsides of the end of semester…
Today is my last Psychology class.
(You can’t actually see my tears, because
they’re virtual, but they’re there.)
I’m going to miss that class. I’ve really, really, really loved it.
Tomorrow is my French Oral Exam. Hopefully, I’ll
have a heart attack. I mean, I won’t
have a heart attack.
I have studied. I
have studied. I shall go to sleep with French
music playing to cement this knowledge into my head. (Cheers to a teenaged Céline Dion!)
Oh god. The semester
is really almost over.
I need to go listen to some Phantom of the Opera. (Cue that awesome
creepy laugh. From the original.)
And now for a lovely, lovely
phoenix-imagery-evoking song (practically half of the song, really.)
“Into the fire – I’m reunited –
Into the fire – I am the spark –
Into the night – I yearn for comfort…
Open the doors that lead on into Eden
Oh, no cheap disguise!
Follow the signs marked ‘back to the beginning,’
No more compromise –
And into the fire, I’m reunited –
(Into the fire) I am
(Into the fire) I yearn for comfort…
I will stare at the sun until its light doesn’t blind me –
I will walk unto the fire until its heat doesn’t burn me –
And I will feed the fire…”
Into the Fire, Solace (1991) Sarah
Oh, what the
heck. Here’s the actual song:
Or just go onto YouTube and search "Into the Fire," and "Sarah McLachlan."